I guess all black cats with white socks look the same but it looks like one of our cats in your lap. 19 years is a long time for a cat the way they like to get themselves in trouble at times. So very sorry for your loss. For cat folks it's as hard on them as dog lovers losing their best friend too. We like both so get hit twice as often. Fortunately for us we usually get another that adopts us as jerks like to dump both dogs and cats out in the country where we live. So if the coyotes don't get them and they can find us before they starve to death we try to save them. Cats that is, not dogs normally because usually they chase our cows and if I catch them they are dead. I do hope you find another cat though because they are just fun to have around. I could do without the catching of birds though but that's just part of their nature.